I’ve been writing this blog for a couple of reasons. Boredom, frustration, love, desperation, anger and hope just to name a few. I have several issues that I’m dealing with in my life with the main one being a lack of direction. My personal life is adrift and my professional one is nonexistent. So many things up in the air and I’m not grounded anymore. And it’s the worse feeling I can imagine. I have to find a resolution or I’m going to lose what sanity I have left. While I say that jokingly, is there some truth to it?
I’m not going to pour out my heart here concerning what’s going on in my life. Several reasons for that, I’m a private person, I don’t want to cause pain or discomfort for my loved ones and it’s no one’s business unless I decide to confide. And I’m certainly not ready to divulge in a public forum. I’m just going to say that I’m so ready to move on to the next chapter in my life. More than ready. I was telling my roommate this morning that the worse thing for me with being unemployed was the inactivity. I always liked to joke that I’m a reformed workaholic, always on the go with something. It seems like ages since my brain has been engaged. I feel on the verge of being stupid. That is somewhat of an exaggeration but hopefully you get my drift.
Since there has been a lot of negativity in my life lately, I’ve been concentrating on positivity and changing my outlook. And it’s working!!!! While I still face ups and downs I feel better equipped to handle them on a long-term basis. It took the realization (finally) that I’m the captain of my own ship. While I deeply care about the opinions of my loved ones, I have to live my life as I see fit for myself. And boy, am I excited about it!
Today I had the fourth friend tell me that I should be writing a book. That blew me away. I love writing this blog, it’s been a great outlet for me but a book???? This friend said, and I quote (just because it made me feel so damn good!) “Just read your Fairy Tale on your blog. Really liked it. You should be writing and publishing something. Self Awareness books?” I can’t tell you how great it was to read that text! She went on to encourage me , telling me ” in any case you write well and have interesting thoughts and that you need to do something with it.” Could this be my next chapter? What would I write about? I’m sure not any expert on anything. I’m just a woman with opinions, and those opinions aren’t very popular at times. I’ve got some ideas stirring around so we’ll see. I certainly need a direction and something to focus on until I go back to work. Since I’ve been out of work I’ve tried to find my direction. Had several great ideas and I know I could succeed but financial constraints have stopped me. This I can afford!
What do you think? Not that I’m another Hemingway but somebody is reading this. Like every person on this earth, I want to be heard and I’m certainly not scared to speak up. The question is do I have something to say that people will want to hear?
Please, please, please weight in on this. I know that I’m not going to write the next great American novel but wouldn’t it be fun to try!
Until I hear from you, I’m sending love, hugs and kisses, best wishes for you to find happiness.
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