A transformation, as by the wonder of nature, magic or sorcery.  The romantic notion of a caterpillar in a cocoon to a butterfly floating on air.  It’s time for my metamorphosis.


For the second time in my professional life, I’m at a crossroad.  I’ve been searching for my ‘work home’ and have not been successful.  My husband, a man whose opinion I respect and admire, suggested that it was time to re-invent myself.  And I couldn’t agree more.

I’m at the stage of my life that I have the knowledge and talent to do anything I desire.  It’s the exact direction and passion that I can’t seem to get a handle on.  When did this process become difficult for me?  Have my dreams all but disappeared?  What path do I follow that will contribute to the family finances and still allow me to balance happiness and time in the way I need?

Now that I’m ‘grown up’, have I forgotten what I wanted to be when I did?  I have reached almost all of my professional goals and the remaining ones… are they still the ones I want to drive towards?

I’ve thought very hard about this predicament.  Is it burnout?  No, not in the least.  I’m chomping at the bit to get back out there and be productive.  Is it age?  No way.  I can run circles around most people and get the job done with one hand tied behind my back.  I love to work and find immense satisfaction in doing a good job.  My work ethics are above average and my dedication is without question.  So… what’s the deal?

I love my profession and it’s ever-changing processes.  It’s dealing with people and the most important aspect of their life.  I know I make a difference to them and what I do is important, vital.  But… I want more.

I feel my creative side starting to tear down the sides of the cocoon.  I want to create and express myself in ways I haven’t before.  It all comes down to how do I make this transition.  It means changing a multitude of mindsets.  Focusing on building my brand and utilizing my talents in a way that will support my needs.  Am I really ready to give up the security of the corporate world to follow a new path?  Do I have that kind of personal courage?  I believe I do.  It’s just as the saying goes, the first step is the hardest.

Am I alone in this?  I don’t think so.  I believe there are quite a few people who while they are satisfied with their present career, they want to grow in a different direction.  I’ve read numerous articles about someone walking away from the corporate life to a creative one and never looking back.  It creates hardships and financial changes but the benefits to their soul is ten-fold.  Have you been there?  Have you metamorphosed into what you feel you truly were meant to be?

I seriously would love to hear your story.  The triumphs along with the disappointments.

My best to you…


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4 Responses to Metamorphosis

  1. Nancy says:

    I am at that crossroad now. I know what I want to do, but need to go back to school to do it. At 40, that little voice that is not so nice whispers that I am too old. However, I know this is not true. I understand the desire to do something for yourself and make it worthy of who you are. I am inspired by your words. I have not been in the corporate world, I have been a housewife. So the desire to be “reinvented” is very strong. Thank you for this blog!


    • Steffanie says:

      Thank you Nancy, I think this is the sweetest comment I’ve ever received! I’m finding out that you definitely aren’t too old to “re-invent” yourself. All it takes is a lot of guts and commitment. I too was a housewife for some years and it truly was one of my best “jobs”! Be proud of it as the corporate world isn’t all it’s cracked up to be!


  2. Sixteen years ago this week I started a whole new life in Austin. My new life in Austin bears little resemblance to the 48 years I spent in Des Moines, Iowa. Since the move, I have completely reformulated my life. I live a life by design. And, oh, it’s been so sweet. A sweet 16 years.


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